If You Could See Me Now...

It was February the fourteen, Valentine's Day 

The roses came, but they took you away

Tattooed on my arm is a charm to disarm all the harm

Gotta keep myself calm but the truth is you're gone

And I'll never get to show you these songs

Dad, you should see the tours that I'm on,

I see you standing there next to Mom

Both singing along, yeah arm in arm

And there are days when I'm losing my faith

Because the man wasn't good he was great

He'd say music was the home for your pain 

And explain, I was young, he would say

"Take that rage, put it on a page, Take the page to the stage, Blow the roof off the place"

I'm tryna make you proud

Do everything you did

I hope you're up there with God 

Saying that's my kid

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

If you could see me now would you recognize me

Would you pat me on the back or would you criticize me 

Would you follow every line on my tear stained face

Put your hand on a heart that's was cold As the day you were taken away

I know it's been awhile but I could see you clear as day

Right now, I wish I could hear you say I drink too much and I smoke too much dutch

But if you can't see me now that shit's a must

You used to say I won't know a winner until it cost me

Like I won't know real love till I've loved then I've lost it 

So if you've lost a sister, someone's lost a mom 

And if you've lost a dad, then someone's lost a son

And they're all missing now, and they're all missing now

So if you get a second to look down at me now

Mum, Dad, I'm just missing you now

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

If you could see me now

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow?

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Oh... Oh...
Would you call me a saint or a sinner?

Would you love me a loser or winner?

Oh... Oh...

When I see my face in the mirrorWe look so alike that it makes me shiver

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow?

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

I still look for your face in the crowd

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow?

Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Oh... You could see, you could see me now (You could see, you could see me now)

I remember one of my Facebook friends shared this, and I took a listen. The moment I realised what the lyrics were, I cried.

And I can tell you that I cried rather loud tears.
.. alone, of course.

Today, it's been raining the whole day, and this song was on my playlist. I felt my heart tighten and had to force back tears.
It feels even more melancholy listening to it when it's raining.

It's the 4th year, Mr Gino. And I still miss you like crazy. T____T