January 10, 2014

If You Could See Me Now...





It was February the fourteen, Valentine's Day 
The roses came, but they took you away
Tattooed on my arm is a charm to disarm all the harm
Gotta keep myself calm but the truth is you're gone
And I'll never get to show you these songs
Dad, you should see the tours that I'm on,
I see you standing there next to Mom
Both singing along, yeah arm in arm

And there are days when I'm losing my faith
Because the man wasn't good he was great
He'd say music was the home for your pain 
And explain, I was young, he would say
"Take that rage, put it on a page, Take the page to the stage, Blow the roof off the place"

I'm tryna make you proud
Do everything you did
hope you're up there with God 
Saying that's my kid


I still look for your face in the crowd
Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow
Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

If you could see me now would you recognize me
Would you pat me on the back or would you criticize me 
Would you follow every line on my tear stained face
Put your hand on a heart that's was cold As the day you were taken away

I know it's been awhile but I could see you clear as day
Right now, I wish I could hear you say I drink too much and I smoke too much dutch
But if you can't see me now that shit's a must


You used to say I won't know a winner until it cost me
Like I won't know real love till I've loved then I've lost it 
So if you've lost a sister, someone's lost a mom 
And if you've lost a dad, then someone's lost a son
And they're all missing now, and they're all missing now
So if you get a second to look down at me now
Mum, Dad, I'm just missing you now


I still look for your face in the crowd
Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)
If you could see me now
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow?
Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)

Oh... Oh...
Would you call me a saint or a sinner?
Would you love me a loser or winner?
Oh... Oh...
When I see my face in the mirrorWe look so alike that it makes me shiver

I still look for your face in the crowd
Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow?
Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)
I still look for your face in the crowd
Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)
Would you stand in disgrace or take a bow?
Oh if you could see me now (Oh if you could see me now)
Oh... You could see, you could see me now (You could see, you could see me now)

I remember one of my Facebook friends shared this, and I took a listen. The moment I realised what the lyrics were, I cried.

And I can tell you that I cried rather loud tears.
.. alone, of course.

Today, it's been raining the whole day, and this song was on my playlist. I felt my heart tighten and had to force back tears.
It feels even more melancholy listening to it when it's raining.

It's the 4th year, Mr Gino. And I still miss you like crazy. T____T