Proof.

I know, I know. I've been horrible for not properly dancing lately. But if this post makes up for it...


You know, I've come to completely realise something.


I mean, I know about it before, but today, I've come to completely be aware of it, and to embrace it as my... 'drug', if you will.


Whenever I'm feeling a little emotional, or when I feel a little down and/or upset because of something, all I need to do is go to my Youtube, watch all the previous videos I've uploaded, and I'll almost immediately feel better.


Mr Gino has always said that when you come for dance/ballet, leave your problems at the door.  When you dance, you have to enjoy it, feel it; otherwise it wouldn't look nice. Then when you leave the studio, you can pick your problems back up from the door. Lol. xp I'll always remember that. I miss you, Mr Gino.


But I needn't throw my problems at the door.  When I enter the studio, my problems automatically dissolve. I find pleasure in dancing. Even in uni, here, whenever I attend the dance classes, I feel happy. Even if there was a bugging assignment due, I'd momentarily forget about it and just enjoy myself (and then it slaps me in the face later. Hahaha).


Today was such a day. And I happened to be on Youtube, so I just thought of looking back on my past videos. And I feel better now.

The cheering just made me smile. And seeing these people, whom before this we had no idea of their talents; go up and surprise us with their dancing, I think that's really refreshing. ^^

And then there's Zhen Yi's class, which is guaranteed to bring laughter. xD Get well soon, Zhen.

And then, of course, there are the videos that tug at my heartstrings. Such as videos of the old studio, Gino Dance Academy. Videos OF him. They bring back memories, but one that I will never forget and treasure forever. I count myself fortunate to be able to learn under him.

Everyone who knows me knows that I live to dance. I'll die without dance. I'm not even kidding. It's now been a trademark, actually, that whenever Rachel mentions the studio, she knows she'll have my attention. (And I think I've annoyed her several times too with my enthusiasm. =p)

In conclusion, dance is the answer to all my problems. Dance is my drug, my brand of heroin. If I don't get a dose of it for too long, I can't function.

Dance = Life.
And I'm not quitting.  

I Feel Horrible.

I really, really do.

When was the last time I actually danced?? =_= I mean like, really dance danced. Properly.
Even more so now when I've got gaping blisters on BOTH my ankles. Patiently waiting for both of them to heal properly before I can dance/ put on my ballet shoes again without worrying that they (my wounds) will over stretch and risking them to open up again.

LIKAAAAAAAAA. The next time I come down, promise me we'll dedicate at least and hour to dance Advanced 1 ok?

After 4 Months...

I finally went back to the studio! ^^ Late, as per normal (*guilty grin*), but hey, I had a good excuse. Flu the night before, so I wanted to rest in a little more.
And not that I could not go, anyways. I was too excited to see everyone again.

I arrived during Grade 7 - Seow Hui, Penguin, Xing Ying, Kai Hong, Charnita - and, the newest (though not exactly 'new') member, Ice. The most kecoh group. Plus Mahgaret. Thanks to her, everyone calls me Kisstel now, even Dhivya. Fml. x]

After that class, Seow Hui, Mahgaret and I went to Frankie's Sandwich Cafe (who knew that such a heavenly cafe even existed in Kuantan??), because Mahgaret said that she heard that the sandwiches there were delicious with a capital D. So I dumped my lunch which I brought to the studio (rice that daddy bought) for sandwiches.
I'm evil, I know.

I actually have more pictures from Frankie, and I would upload them all, but the photo uploaders are being a retard and I can't seem to upload them. =_="

Anyways.
Not much has changed, only the students whom 4 months before I saw were little munchkins, have now grown taller. I also helped teach Grade 4 (GOD I miss teaching...), and a little of Primary (Iris, Agnes, and Amanda's class).

A little excerpt of the Primary class:

A will be going to the studio again later in the afternoon; and this time, more of the 'old' students will be there. Can't wait! ^^

I Meant To Post This Earlier...

But I hope it still counts, considering it's already past midnight! =_=

Last night (or rather, the night before), I dreamt that I was teaching young kids ballet again. T_T It's been around 4 months since I've seen them, and I miss them so. The weird thing about the dream, though, is that I was teaching a bunch of kids, maybe around... 6-8 year-olds, ballet in what looked like a hallway of some supermarket. =_= As if that's not weird enough, I also dreamt that I clobbered poor Suzanne Pok for misbehaving. O.o

Um, WHUT.

There will be no title because I don't know what to name this entry.
In fact, I think this will be more of a statement than an entry, because this will be a short one.

Thanks to the technology called 'Facebook' (LOL), I've been able to keep up with my girls from the studio. Needless to say, Mahgaret and Penguin are regular correspondents. x]

Occasionally, I'd chat with my former students Wei Yun, Jo Yee and Xing Wei, though I probably chat with Xing Wei the most. The other day, we happened to chat again. She put a lot of sad smileys, and when I ask her why, she said she missed me 'very very very much', to put it in her words. She asked me to come back soon, so I could see them dance. She also told me that Jo Yee and her had skipped Grade 4 after their Grade 3 exam, and went straight to Grade 5.

What's the point of this post?
Well I just felt that it was nice that although I no longer teach, I'm still regarded as their teacher, and that they haven't forgotten me.

Yeah, I'm a sap. So what? =p

This Will Be A Short Entry.

Because I just HAD to post this up now, but I can't/don't want to dwell on it too long because I'm currently at the CC, and I"m afraid I'll start bawling my eyes out if I think of it for too long. So here goes.

Remember how all this time, Gino has told mummy how his late wife died giving birth to Mischa? And how he told a different story to one of his sisters, whom told Lika that Gino had 2 other daughters when Lika asked?

Yes.
According to his other sister,  they were between 21-25/26, and studying in England..

I called Lika earlier today out of boredom, and found out the truth about it all; Mr Gino never had 'two daughters'. It seemed that the other sister (who was not as close to Gino as Norma was) might have misunderstood. Norma had told Lika that chances were, the 'two daughters' the other sister meant were actually Lika and I. Because it seemed, Mr Gino talked a lot about us. And it would explain the age range. I was around 20-21 at that time, and Lika was 24-25.

Another thing I found out was where Gino had gotten my 'pet' name, 'Crystal Packing Mama'. It was originally a country song titled 'Pistol Packing Mama', and amongst the people who sang it was Willie Nelson. And that was the only version I had time to listen to, in order not to break down in public. He changed the title of the song and put my name instead.

Ok, I think that's enough for now. Just to write this short entry, I had to distract myself (I couldn't stand writing it all at one shot - and had to take a few breaths to calm myself before continuing)  several times, then continue.

Before I post this, here's the video of Willie Nelson's version of Pistol Packing Mama.
RIP, Mr Gino. You still make me cry.

Someone Spank Me.

Oh, and get your head outta the gutters, people! I don't mean it like that. ;p

I mean that in a way because I haven't been updating my dance blog.
Which means I haven't been dancing.
Properly, that is.

And, those of you who know me very well know how blur I can be, and how long it takes for the little brain of mine to process things.
Well, said 'little brain' has just realised something, now, almost 2 months after it happened.

I was reading through my posts in my other, more general blog (SGA), and I came across something that made me realise something.
In this post in SGA, I mentioned how I promised that I would join UTAR's Dance Club, first and foremost as a tribute to Mr Gino, and that I would not stop dancing.
Then months later, when I finally managed to join the Dance Club, I was elected Assistant Treasurer at the General Meeting.

Could it be, perhaps, Mr Gino's way of making sure that I kept my promise; that I would not stop dancing? Because although I am only the Assistant Treasurer, I'm still part of the committee nonetheless, meaning that I still have to attend 'meetings', and have a say in decisions made for the Dance Club.

I dunno, I may be thinking too much, and probably have made some of you sick with this whole 'Mr Gino thing'.
But it's just a thought.
And it's not impossible, is it not?

Even with my involvement in the dance club...

I can't help missing ballet.
I'm not being ungrateful here. I love that I have a studio to practise in here, and that I can go whenever I want to dance.
But it's not the same, you know?

I miss going for class.
Classes that involve me and my group of friends (LIKA~ I MISS DANCING WITH YOU ) dancing, and having a proper teacher (I'm not saying you student dancers are bad, honestly. Heck, I'll be one of you next semester!) teaching at the front. I haven't had a proper ballet lesson in ages that I fear that my techniques/footwork are all deteriorating. It's been more than half a year that I'm in university now. And for almost 8 months, I haven't been having proper lessons at all.

I want to dance again.

I want to go for classes with Lika, Seow Hui and the rest, and dance for hours and complain about our aching bodies together after class.
I want to feel the ache that comes with a good ballet class again.
I want to go to KL for a one-day class; get excited when I'm on the way to KL, then feel so tired and poofed and sweaty that I start feeling thankful that we're going back when we're in the bus back.

Everytime I watch videos in YouTube of ballet classes, I get glazy-eyed.
Sure, there's always Ms Tham, and even Ms Chua (*shudders*), but nothing can replace Mr Gino's method of teaching. HIs dirty jokes. His 'Classical Thai'. His singing.
I'm not saying that he's the best in the world. He has his faults, but still.

Is there a ballet class anywhere in Kampar?

A Reason To Smile, A Reason To Cry.

I had a great time in the studio today with Ann & Edward. We stayed there for almost 3 hours.

The thing about dancers are, as I found out, they can get ballet in a fair amount of time, because of their dancing background. Regardless of what dance they've done, it's still dancing either way, so from what I've seen, they only have a little trouble getting used to the positions and steps. Max & Edward are perfect examples.

But anyways, we all had a good laugh today. Edward was really diligent; he practised classical walks till he got it right, pirouettes, and pose. He was very disciplined too. I  liked that.

The 3 of us teased each other a lot. Ann was in the corner of the studio with the yoga mat, working out. I was teaching Edward ballet. It was quite hilarious, actually. xD And I don't mean that in a bad way, love. xDD

But like everything else, happiness also has it drawbacks: a pool of tears later.
Min Ru & I broke up.
Can't say I didn't see it coming to be honest, though. Still, it hurt nonetheless.

But I'm ok now, and life goes on. Besides, there's the retail therapy to look forward to in a few hours! ^^
You're a genius for suggesting it in the first place, Rachel! =D

Oh, and quote of the day:

"A good dancer can dance anywhere; 

(he) just blends their body in with the environment. "

Um.

Um, wow.
I got elected as Assistant Treasurer of the Dance Club.
Thanks to Rachel who nominated me (you traitor, haha), and Shangaree who seconded *glares*
Even though I told them that I was horrible with money. =_="
Oh well, at least Rachel was elected Chairperson! xD